Living life to its fullest while thriving through depression
I’m standing here in my kitchen staring at a picture on my Google Home screen that was taken exactly 1 year ago today. I’m smiling in the picture, happy to be surrounded by family at our amazing Wilkins Family Reunion. As I continue to stare deeply at this picture a million thoughts flood my mind. […]
This past year has already flown by and looking back I have barely posted anything to this blog. Even though I haven’t posted in a long while I still get frequent visitors to my website, which makes me realize and continues to confirm, that there are a lot of you out there who are reading […]
I wish so badly there was such a thing as a rewind button in life. If we could rewind and live life a little more fully. If we could tell the people we love just how much they mean to us a little more thoroughly. If we could sit still and listen a little more […]
Or maybe there are words just not the right ones to explain exactly how I am feeling. I feel empty, I feel hopeless, I feel lost, I feel sad and scared. I feel like I am living in one of those hamster balls that roll around all over the ground but just keeps bumping into […]
Have you ever felt like you want to just disappear? Have you ever wondered what life would be like for those around you without you in it? Have you ever felt like their lives might be better if you never existed? Have you ever felt like you cause more pain than peace in other people’s […]
–My Dad— I heard someone say recently, “My dad is not living anymore, I hate hearing about how people don’t get along with their dads. I would give anything to be able to be with my dad right now”. This person showed his love and appreciation to his dad while he was living and his […]
Lately I have felt it almost impossible to be able to focus. I have noticed this previously with my mental illnesses but for some reason recently it feels more exaggerated than before. If I sit down to write out a game plan for my day I am quickly distracted with something else. It almost feels […]
I have had lots of visitors in October and last week too. It was so so good to have them here. So good to be with people who know me so well I can be 100% authentic with them and they love me for it. While they were visiting I felt uplifted and rejuvenated and […]
Perhaps one of the hardest things about depression for me is the realization that it might never go away. What is it to feel happy? It is so far from my mind I fear I can’t remember what it is. I am surrounded by people I love and who love me and yet I can’t […]
It’s Saturday night, our date night. I went on a date with Jake tonight I picked him up from work, actually I met him at work and we took his car. I planned the date this time. Tonight we went to Texas roadhouse for dinner. We had some really good conversations. We talked about our […]
